| | Personal ?s to the "C/S"ers
Hello all! Because this is my first post and I feel ready & rarin to shoot some questions, I want to get right to the nitty gritty! Right now I'm just kind of information-gathering. This is specifically for those that have experience "C/S" (chewing/spitting). (And I am personally going through this now, so please be nothing short of brutally honest! I promise I'm the last person to ever judge anyone.)
How much time do you spend per day doing it? What kinds of food? Does it feel good or is it more of a compulsion, or does it switch around? Have you noticed any side effects from it? Do you still actually ingest food as well, or does C/S take the place of swallowing? Do you do other things or concentrate only on that while you do it? How do you hide it from others; or do others know about it? Do you rinse every time or just sometimes? Do you do it in front of others or only alone? Do you worry that you're ingesting billions of extra calories? Does it work to keep you skinny? Do you want to stop or are you happy with it? Have you ever stopped for a period of time and then started again? Is it an addiction? What have you 'heard' from others about it? Do other people outside of ED seem to know it even exists? Why do you think you started?
ANYTHING you can/will tell me, in as much detail as you like, would be greatly appreciated. I live in a town where there are literally no support groups for ED and this is the first message board I've found to post on, and I'm just to a point where I feel so alone with all the doubt/worry/wondering/curiosity. And of course the negative feelings that come along with what is, for me, a negative habit (usually; in some ways, anyway). Thanks!