I am "supposed" to be gaining like 20 lbs but seemed to have gained the first 10 already very quickly which is upsetting. Tho my feet/shins are VERY swollen. I just don't understand: There is just absolutely no way I've been consuming enough calories every day to constitute this kind of gain yet! Is some of this possibly water weight? How will I know?
My nutritionist said to eat whatever I want whenever I want, which I have not been able to do, so I am very disappointed. I had wanted to be able to enjoy the weight gain (was trying to mentally come to terms with needing to gain & actually allowing myself to) & now I feel like its over before it even began.
Any advice on how to keep from restricting?
Also: is it absurd to try & judge whether or not I'm eating enough by how much physical strength I have on a daily basis? Can you tell that quickly, from one day to the next?
And I still feel hungry all the time sooooooo hungry but evidently I'm getting enough food if I'm gaining..(??) Well why is my every waking moment still consumed with thoughts of food? UGH it's miserable!