Wondering What The Heck To Do Next...Suggestions?
Hey. It's Me Again. (Le Sigh).
Right. So as it stands now I'm on 400mg of Topamax (which is like my safety net - though not 100% effective), 600mg of Tegretol (which does absolutely NOTHING for me, I'm waiting to get off it) and 2000mg of Keppra per day. The Keppra WAS working beautifully and then suddenly it stopped, albeit not completely. It's so/so affective.
Heres the thing, I keep going from med to med and I'm just right fed up with the entire situation. Some of you may remember that I'm allergic to Teg (mildly) and Keppra makes me depressed...like super-ly. Now I can't tell if its the Keppra or the situation itself - I mean what do I do now? I hate this feeling of what next? Nothing works and I'm actually considering just telling my doctor to take me off EVERYTHING but Topamax (which I'll never go off 'cause those days were most bizzare).
Its a very weird balancing act. Are some seizures okay to live with or are the terrible side effects okay - actually I guess the side effects are rather pointless considering that the meds aren't even working. Keppra is costing me $400.00 a MONTH right out of my pocket (the others are covered) and I'm making $9.00 an hour at a part time job (I'm a full time student).
I've been on Lamictal.
I'm really just venting. My list of meds to try here is slowly deminishing and I'm getting really nausious thinking about it. I have weird frustrating seizures. Generally they are just blank moments but sometimes I'll talk about random stuff, or do random things and those 'hurt' and lately when I look at things like the overhead in class, the TV or out the window the whole room just shifts back and forth REALLY REALLY fast. THATS frustrating. Oohhh, I had one just now while typing this. This is far too frequent.
I'm 22 and I want a FULL set of answers by the time I'm 23 - May. Suggestions please. Help help help.
Love Kaitie. Frustrated and a Tad Alone...though I guess we all know that one.