| | need to tell my story
Am 30, single mom, worked full time, in law school part time. About 2 months ago, had 4 grand mals in 3 days, remember very little of that week, have had about 6 since then, not as bad, leave me so tired,in the hospital about 5 days, was so drugged. Came home on Topamax, made me feel like I had the mind of a 5 year old, couldn't read, almost had to drop out of school. Was so scary, thought I was going to be mentally impaired forever.
Got a 2nd opinion, on Dilantin and Keppra. Have my mental capacity back, haven't been back to work, caught up on school, decided to quit my job. Dr. says the stress of motherhood, work and school is not good. Have lots of auras now, dizzy, feel "lost," can't drive, got lost on the metro last week, don't remember how I got where I was going. Feel so irritable all the time, angry, hostile, nervous, don't eat, don't sleep. Scared to try any other drugs after TOpamax left me so zoned out.
Hate this! Feel like I'm crazy. I remember years of headahces, lots of fainting, or blacking out, just feeling like I was watching people sometimes but couldn't interact, like I was just off somewhere, still feel that way. My significant other is so frustrated with me. She's not sure if I'm just angry b/c of what's happened or if it's the drug. Just feel psycho all the time. Had to get this all out. Have lots more to say and to ask, but just wanted to post my first message and get it out there. Thanks.