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after reading a few of your posts.i really do know how you feel.
Epilepsy can take its toll and it sucks, i never ever thought i would have an illness, i was always that bright and full of fun up until the age of 11...from that age i went really shallow and very upset, i knew eventually i had to come to terms with it, but never really understood it till i was about 15-16.as i was off school alot through the disorder,i wouldd spend weeks in hosp. In a way it was a great scive from school! 22 years on it can still get me down, never try to think about it to much and make sure i take med first thing in the morning and that my tummy is full.
The people at school used to think i had a disease and that they would catch it, but i did have the people who understood, if i had seizure they would all stand round me and look,....now my seizures are very few and far between, but it would be pot luck if i grew out of them or not,,,but i never have..bbbbbut they have spaced themselves out over the years.could be my body maturing who knows?
i have had freinds and lost them through this, i will never get to close to people, and i would never be a burden on anyone. I am a very distant person sometimes and just screw up with nerves, even if i am outside in busy places i get very phobic, is it understandabbble.if someone looks at me i think they know i have epilepsy! its crazy i know but 22 years on i still feel like this.