Sorry Kitty, Lisa & Amy................... - Epilepsy Message Board

Grumps · 08-24-2003, 05:26 AM

Hi Guys

I am really sorry I have not been around over the last week and also sorry I have not been my usual happy self. I am struggling at the moment and I have not Idea why. Silly things are making me really angry and my head has become very sensitive and small noises really hurt no idea what it is.

I have also had to do some hand holding for my Mum and Dad and as I am the only child there I am the only one around.

I am also getting very very broody which I am struggling to deal with - I have been told by my specialist that I should not get pregnant and I have not had a good record with pregnancies I've lost 3 babies so I guess the time has come to find out if I can have children the biggie is my partner does not want children and up to about a month ago neither did I but now I do and I guess it is because I am 32 and the clock is ticking but who knows.

In all my pregancies the babies died due to the umbilical cord not growing so they starved. However, my body did not reject and I had to be given drugs to loose them which was not nice this is also a crap time of year becuase September is the month I lost 2 of them they would be 9 years, 7 years and 1 month old by now.

For some reason I am dwelling on this a bit at the moment.

Not sure how to deal with this one it is difficult as a lot of my friends are now becoming pregnant for the first time - I guess I can relate it to when I first developed epilepsy I was 17 and most of my friends were learning to drive and when I had to stop that was hard, but you get over it.

Positive though it is a Bank Holiday in the UK tomorrow which means we get an extra lie in Fab............

Keep in touch guys and I will check in later

Lots of Love

XX

KittyMom · 08-24-2003, 02:27 PM

Grumps,

Of course I fogive you!!! I was never mad, just worried. I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. Did this happen around the time of your seizure? Don't worry sweetie (easier said than done I know)everything will work out. This is just a phase and will pass. Seizures will do a number on you physically and mentally. Weather will make you feel down too. Why? I don't know but it does.

Tell me more of how you are feeling...Please. I am worried and if I can help in any way you know I will help you. No doubt!!

I have a ton to tell but I am going to make a new post. I need some advice myself but I want you to feel better first.

Amy, are you there???

I don't think she is feeling well either. I hope this isn't contageous. I need to fix you ladies. Tell me everything and I will see what I can do.

I miss you guys and your posts. I hope you are feeling better and able to post more often. Sometimes if you get back into your usual routine you will feel better. I have just tried that reciently and it worked.

Write me and tell me more about how you are feeling. Vent it all out on me.

God Bless you,
KittyMom

rainonwindow · 08-24-2003, 03:15 PM

Aw.....Grumps =(

That must be so hard. You are grieving for the babies you lost and wondering if you ever will have one. It must be especially difficult dealing with this when your partner is not interested in having a child.

I wish you the best

KittyMom · 08-25-2003, 07:42 AM

Grumps,

I am sorry. I haven't been around much myself and not the best person to talk to right now. My meds have been increased and I feel terrible. Sorry!!

I have never lost a child. I could not imagine how that must feel as I sit here and look at my 3 children. It must be devistating. You poor poor dear. I am sorry that you are going thru this and I am sorry that I wasn't more of a help yesterday. My life is all twisted up and confusing right now. It is not good...so please forgive me for not being very helpful and sympothetic. I am ashamed!

God Bless you sweetie,
KittyMom

amydianne1 · 08-25-2003, 08:42 AM

Grumps,

There is NO reason to apologize, I am just SOOOOO sorry you are feeling so bad!

Just write when you feel up to it and know that we are all here for you. I am so sorry that you are having to go through this.

Hugs to you, and you are in my prayers,

Amy