I have been reading alot of postings about how some people are having problems being on Keppra, while others are having trouble with Lamitcal. It seems like they are on either or. The doctor has me on both. I'll admit I get really depressed alot of times. Also, when I get real mad I start to throw things and will run away, slamming doors, from everyone so I can calm down. There are times I have even cussed out my oldest daughter and called her a "b*tch".

By reading all these postings I am concern about the fact that I am on both Keppra and Lamitcal at the same time.
I have thought about suicide, but the main thing that has kept me from doing something stupid is what my deceased grandma told me, when she said that if I commit suicide I will not goto heaven and I will be walking this earth when I die. People don't probably believe in things like this, but I know she is their in heaven

and I want to see her again. We were really close!
I also have two daughters, ages 7 and 11, that I love very much. So, I really don't want to make their lives miserable. I think they will understand me better when they get older.