Hi..I have had epilepsy since I was very small. I am now in my 50's. Several years ago, I was doing so well on primidone that my neurologist decided to take me off altogether(gradually). I ended up having many of what I call "mini" seizures each day, but I was aware of my surroundings and anyone who looked at me probably didn't know I was having them. My doctor put me back on primidone and dilantin, but my seizures never were quite controlled. I have a different doctor now (my previous neurologist retired around '99). I had put on 40 pounds, and about 3 years ago, I decided to stop the junk food, exercise and I did lose that weight. My new doctor told me that he might could decrease my medication since I had lost weight. At the time he did nothing, but stupid me decreased the medication myself, again causing the return of these "mini" seizures. I didn't learn the first time when my previous neurologist took me off my meds (gradually). So back I go again and have my 2nd neurologist increase my dosages. Since I decided to "take matters into my own hands", I cannot get these seizures completely under control again. I've had my medicine adjusted, bloodwork done every 6 months (which my neurologist says is now perfect), but still I'm having these mini seizures. They don't last any longer than 10-15 seconds, and again, I am aware of my surroundings, I don't talk to myself, do the lip-smacking, etc. What I do have is fear afterwards....I'm afraid of someone walking up behind me and scaring me. This may sound weird, but I remember having these exact same scary feelings after having a seizure when I was younger. I do have temporal lobe epilepsy, but these "mini" seizures that I've been having for the past few years are not TL seizures. I think stress and worry causes them also. Alot of times all I have to do is think of a seizure and I immediately have one!! Other times, it can be a certain thing I'm thinking about that has nothing at all to do with worrying, or when it is time to take my medicine that I have them. I space my medication so that I'm taking them 3X a day per doctor's orders. I take them at 8 am, 2 pm, and again at 8 pm, but that is my timing...it only says on the bottles 3X a day. Could it be improper spacing between dosages, or should I allow more time between each dosage? I go to my neurologist Thursday, and if he decides to put me on a new medicine, I do not want to be put on an AED that is going to cause me to gain weight. I worked too hard to get that weight off. Thanks.