Re: how do you cope or be happy
I know what you mean about feeling like nobody cares- I moved away from my home of 17 years to return to my 'hometown' (feels like h*ll with a zip code) to help with a demented parent who died suddenly 2 days after returning from 3 months away from their house....I had 3 weeks with her, and moved my entire life away from my home for that. Then I got sick living in this climate (cold and nasty in the winter, as in painful to skin type of cold). Now I'm on disability, and am doing all I can to get well enough to return to where I feel like I'm home. My surviving parent has a life here, with friends. I don't, and want to go where my life was productive and healthier. I feel very alone here. Supportive as my parent may want to be, it becomes more of an issue of dealing with his panic and fears, not on healing. So, health issues are not discussed, as it's just too stressful. It's better when I'm 1300 miles away, and have my co-worker 'family', who knew I was 'alone' there, and looked out for me without the added stress of taking care of them when I was sick.....when they needed something, and I could help, I was there. It was a 2-way street. Here, it's just plain miserable.
I learned never to give up my life to do what I 'thought' was right, and not because I truly wanted to move. I wanted to help, not lose my identity (my work). Now I resent being here.
But it's not the epilepsy, diabetes, fibromyalgia, dysautonomia, arthritis, knee replacement, pulmonary emboli, heart cath, or anything else medical- it's other circumstances that cause more stress than that, at least for me. I've lived with the medical stuff 'there', and here, and it's so much worse here- partly because of climate issues and not adjusting to the cold again, and partly due to family dysfunction that I can't fix- just take care of my side of things.
Last edited by neurowreck; 11-10-2007 at 06:26 PM.