Originally Posted by brokenheart mom
Hi I'm new to this and am trying to figure out how to read the posts...my heart is broken again by my son who is was on herione now he is getting suboxone here and there...am I kidding myself believing he can just get off herione (sp)and do suboxone here and there
I've been where you are with my son.
He got clean, except for marijuana, but has recently been arrested for that (not for the first time) and is now facing a jail sentence.
I'm disappointed, but I'd far rather have him in jail than dead of an overdose, which he almost was several times before he quit the hard stuff.
He has an addictive personality. I'm not blind; I know he'll probably struggle with various addictions for his whole life... and I'll suffer right along with him.
I still wouldn't trade him for the world, and I still have hope, of course, that he'll get his life straightened out someday. Moms can never give up hope, no matter how often they're disappointed.
You're not alone.
It's amazing, when I was going through my bleakest times with my child, how many acquaintances and coworkers confided in me that their teen or young adult children had similar problems. These were successful, dynamic women. You never would've suspected they'd have these problems with their kids.
It made me feel better knowing I was far from alone. So many young people have drug problems these days.
It's a terrible heartache. But it's not one that you're feeling alone, believe me.
A lot of moms are feeling it right along with you, and I am one of them.