We have been together for 10 1/2 yrs(not legally married) and we have 3 children 2 of them are in elementary school.
I knew he was an addict when we met but he was clean then so i really didn't know what i was getting into.
He was good for 5 yrs then 1 of my children was in a terrible accident and needed pain pills I also had a very sick baby at the same time, I then couldn't find the bottle of pills but considering i was barely sleeping i just assumed i misplaced them somewhere until i went looking for a phone cord and found where he stashed the empty bottle. He admitted it and said he wouldn't do it anymore & i thought it was over but that was just the beginning of a long terrible road for all of us. He went to rehab 2x and seemed to be good for a few mths except for the last year when he's only been clean a few weeks at a time.
In this last year he has spent thousands of dollars on his opiates and the funny thing is he is on Subutex which also costs about $300 a mth incl. doctor fee.
I have numerous holes in my walls and just recently he broke our bedroom door as i was getting my little girl to leave. He says terrible things to me,calls me names in front of the kids like C*nt,b*tch,*****,stupid,idiot,dumbass etc.
He has spit in my face 4 times and the one that really scared me is when i told him to "shut the F up" and he got up grabbed the laptop came over to me on the couch threatening to hit me with it, i was curled up on couch as he laughed as he pretended he was gonna hit me & the day before he splashed boiling water with a fork at me and 1 drop burned the corner of my eye.
I got my older daughter out of the shower and ready to go to the doctor, he actually said to her on the way out" i hope you don't grow up to be a c8nt like your mother". He has been unemployed for a yr and now we are losing our house as we can no longer pay it and support his habit.
He just spent the last $900 we had. He is the biggest lier, manipulator i have ever met and after 5 yrs i am DONE!
The problem is I am a stay at home mom and have no income of my own and have not wrked in 10yrs so i can't just pick up and move and although i wish i could I have nowhere to go. I feel like i live in a insane asylum with all his personalities it;s really crazy!
So i ask for any advice and thank you for reading this, sorry it is so long