You should not feel guilty at all. In order for you to help him, you need to understand what he is going through, and you need to understand your reactions to it. I am also living with an addicted boyfriend. It isn't alcohol, but whatever the addiction, the feelings are the same. I am a firm believer that you can love somebody to death, but you can't make decisions for them. They have to want to change. And, where does it say that you have to suffer in a relationship? As much as you love somebody, you are still #1. I told my boyfriend that if he didn't get help for himself, I would leave. He's trying now, so we'll see. But, if things don't change, I have to take care of myself too. You can't help him until you take care of yourself. Good luck to you, and I hope that you two can work it out. But like I said, Do Not Feel Guilty! Staying around and fighting all the time, or having bitter feeling toward him isn't healthy, and isn't going to help him at all. Good luck!