I don't even know where to start!
I have been married for 10 years and my husband has always had the following characteristics:
he reads double meanings in other people's speech
He has always been somewhat paranoid.
Goes from happy to sad at the drop of a hat
the list goes on...
All types of mental illnesses run in his family from schophrenia to depression, bi polar etc.
About 5 years ago he started some very strange behavior.
He would wake up in the middle of the night and just pace around the house or a few times I awoke to him just sitting there starring at me , which was very scarry! he was completely cold and withdrawn I would repeatedly ask him what is wrong? and he always said nothing ( very angrily). Well after several weeks of this behavior he started acting even more strange .. Like when I came out of the bathroom he would say :" what were you doing in there so long, it doesn't take that long to take a bath.. I heard strange noises through the door.. etc...." To make a long story short ( and this is embarassing ) but he thought I was doing sexual things with myself . It got worse. At one point I was in bed and he got up took the baby monitor with him in the other room and I knew he was in one of his " moods" so I just lay there as quiet and still as I could ( so not to give him a reason to "think" he heard something) but it didn't help about 10 minutes later he came into the room and insisted he heard strange "noises " on the monitor and no matter how hard I tried to convince him he would NOT listen. He punched a hole in the wall just above the bed where I was sleeping..It made me angry I had had enough ! I took the kids and went to my moms house that night.
The next day he promised to get help so we made an appointment with a local counselor. The counselor dismissed the idea of him even having anything wrong with him at all !! and instead just gave us marriage couseling ( Sigh!)
He promised he could control his behavior and it wouldn't happen again. And it didn't ( for the most part) until a few days ago.
He started his pattern again. Kept getting up in the middle of the night and seemed to be depressed and deep in thought all the time.He kept bringing up relegious topics out of the blue and his theories made no sense as always ..
The other night I asked him ( as I do many times a week) What's wrong?
He said I don't want to tell you because you will think I'm crazy.. I said try me!
He preceeded to tell me that he needed to quit his job and get out of that place NOW.. I said what do you mean? Why?
He told me that all the clues were there for him to get out now.. He said the songs on the radio had clues in them . He said he got up the other night and opened the bible to read it( he normally doesn't read the bible) and there was a new chapter in it he had never seen before and when he closed the book and opened it back up It was gone!! .. He was literelly terrified , even crying and just basically "freaking out" it scared me !He kept saying his work was a gathering place of evil basically..
I just calmly explained to him that he cannot control what will happen or when it will happen but he has to keep going to work because he has kids to feed ! None of what he said that night made any sense at all ! talking about the end of the world and how he could see it etc.. Just bizarre
For the most part he usually functions very well so I don't know if he needs to be on medication all the time .He is a good dad and husband and I don't want him to go to the doctor and be immediately put on all sorts of drugs that could have harmful side effects or make him violent etc...
I know he needs to go see a phsychiatrist(sp) but I wanted to know if some of you out there have similar symptoms , is it scizophrenia? will it get worse if he doesn't get on something? He is 30 now.
He hasn't come out of his recent "relegion" phase yet because this morning I found a note he wrote it's dated 2 am . It was about a dream he had. He normally doesn't keep a journal at all so I found this writing very disturbing and it had to do with my kids. ( his dream was he had to hide them in the woods for their safety and told them to always remember that our savior does not come until the very stars fall from the sky) Yikes! I don't want to wake up 1 morning and find my kids gone ! I am so scared of this illness.
I called the doctor to make an appointment but the waiting list is 2 months
Sorry for the very long post and if anyone has stuck around long enough to read it all I appreciate any advice you can give.