
Yesterday, my husband came home from work and told me that he has an Appt. with a Doctor to get a blood test for his hormone level and discuss his 'pain' in his kidneys. He said,"I got the first Appt. I could get--Aug. 7th! Until then, I'm not going to take the new med. the PDOC gave me. I think my 'problem' maybe from my low testostrone levels. I've read that it can cause really bad depression and no sex drive." Well...I'm at the point now that I want him to do whatever he needs to do to face his denial. I'm not saying that he doesn't have problems with his hormone level! Who knows? Maybe he does!

I'm just soooo tired! If he needs to do this in order to 'accept' that he has a real mental health disorder--then so be it! I'm sure it's very hard to face the fact that you are sick. I just keep praying that he will come to that fact on his own...and SOON!!! I am really looking forward to going to my counseling session this next week!!! I need it so bad!!