samandtola

My husband has acted inappropriately since we married over three years ago. For a few months about a year and 1/2 Ago I thought it had resolved itself with being under meds and he seemed calmer and more productive. We conceived our daughter then and I thought things were okay...Until about 15 months ago. Things went back to usual - a nighmare. My husband lost his job a week after she was born, on my birthday. He was out of work for what seemed to be forever and now seems stable again. He was recently rediagnosed from depression and ADHD to bipolar. How do I trust his condition and how do I go on with life assuming he is never stable for long? Can I have more children? Do I not rely on him and go work full time? Where do I draw my line? I love him but so much trust and confidence in him has been broken. I know its not really his fault but we have a child, a hefty mortgage and right now he wants me working part time (it would be ideal if he were pemanently under control) and is trying to start a side business he is being successful at. But that too - I worry will fail heaven forbid. We barely make our bills and usually don't. He has racked up over 30,000 dollars in debt for us (credit cards, etc.) and I am drowning in stress. I fear for my well being and my daughter's. I am under a lot of weight and I just want to be a good mother and wife. Is that too much to ask for?! Open to answers...