PTSD..me too-toxic parents..
Im older now..early 40s but i feel like a bad little child..cos i was..i guess.
My parents blamed me for there divorce/lack of $$/sending me to boarding school-to get rid of me..etc..i was hit/spanked-screamed at-kicked out of my house-sent away..i was just a lonely kid-who needed mom to love..hug me..
Dad was bi-polar-raged hit-broke things..left our family/came back..etc.
I saw him beat me sister up as a lil kid..shes bipolar too
Finally-ive been able to piece things together..thru therapy..3 yrs in..i am getting it..and getting better-
Therapy/meds..have helped alot..
i send you all-love/healing..cos this is real..and it makes life unbearable sometimes.