juancarlos331

I am certain my mother has an undiagnosed mental disorder. Here are a list of some of her symptoms and episodes. It sounds like Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD) to me, but I am not qualified to make that diagnosis. I figure asking other people for help is the best I can do though. I am at my wits end, every day is a struggle.
She is:
1) Is in house almost constantly. Fears she cannot leave for any amount of time or I will go nuts. This is extremely detrimental to her well-being, as she never gets out to relax, and has fairly few friends or activities that she sees/does outside of the house.

2) Hypocondriac- Believes she is allergic to: milk, eggs, rubber, elastic, latex, mould, asprin, down, straws, corn (corn syrup, corn starch, ect). I have done tests to see if she is actually allergic to many of these things, and she is not.

3) She pulled over in the car because she believed she was allergic to the rubber mat beneath her feet, we stopped at some paramedics, they told her she was having a classic panic attack, she laughed, said “No, I’m just allergic to rubber, I know my own body” and left

4) She obsesses over electromagnetic and microwave radiation. She got an EMF reader and measured the measurements all around our entire house and around all of our electronic devices, wrote them down, and told me where it was safe to stand in the house. She keeps the microwave in the garage for fear it will give us all cancer. She freaks out if I am within 10 feet of it while it is turned on.

5) She thinks cars on the street and vans are driving by in coordination, scoping out the neighborhood quite frequently. She keeps track of them and keeps binoculars by her window to watch them.

6) She used to hallucinate people in her room, usually right after she had woken up, she would shriek in the middle of the night quite often. Thankfully she stopped doing that.

7) Quite often she thinks I am saying something when I am totally silent, or imagines she saw a person, and inspects the whole house/car/outdoors looking for them to make sure we are safe

8) Once she freaked out, started hyperventilating, and laid underneath the dining table in the fetal position crying.

9) Another time, I was angry and locked myself in my room for a while. She started panicking and shouted “Natty come home, please come home” for hours.

10) She over reacts to any act of disdain on my part. If I don’t text her for a few hours because I am mad at her, she assumes I am dead, and calls all of my friends’ parents and the police. I threw a flip-flop in another room once (about 20 feet away from her) and she called the police and said that I assaulted her. She thought I was angry because I was smoking crack cocaine in the house. I have never, and will never even consider smoking crack cocaine.

11) She keeps lists of literally EVERYTHING. Her personal hygiene, watering the lawn, dog walks, all my friends and things about them, my personality, the gas in the car and it’s mileage, there are literally thousands of pieces of paper throughout our house with lists and lists on them.

12) She thinks I have an anger problem, even though all my anger is directed at her psychotic behavior. I have had to basically babysit her delusions for my entire life, and I have no emotional attachment to her. As such it is extremely difficult dealing with her mental issues on a constant basis, of COURSE I get angry. Only at her though. She doesn’t see any of her behaviors as a problem, and I don’t even want to bring it up with her anymore, because every time I try she just brings the conversation back to me and the problems she perceives I have. “I’m like that? Well what about you??” ect. I think if she ever went to a therapist that she wouldn’t get the help that she needs because she wouldn’t talk about her delusions with her therapist. To her they seem to be in the background, but to everyone else they are in the foreground.

I can’t live in the same house as this crazy person anymore. I don’t care about her at all, she barely is able to support herself, and I have another year before I can legally move out. Her psychosis has extremely degraded my ability to feel any love towards family members (her being the only family member I see more than once every few years), and my tolerance of bothersome people. I want her to get help, but I can’t stand to be around her or even talk to her for more than a few minutes because her always accusing and suspicious nature takes over immediately.

Can anyone help? I don’t know how I can make it another year. After that I am cutting off contact 100%