Re: Fatigue After Flare-Up
Well it was a full moon on Friday which I've noticed always seems to happen when we're all flaring badly. Wet weather affects the inflammation in your body because of the humidity and barometric pressure. I think part of the emotional reaction to the flare is a feeling of helplessness and possibly some sort of neurological connection. I really believe there has to be some kind of neurology involved in this disease because of the wierd burning, numbness, shooting pains, pins and needles, etc. that we get.
I woke up my hubby at 2:00 am last night because I was in such bad pain and couldn't sleep. I can't take anything because of the baby and that made me start cyring harder. I feel bad because I'm thinking more about how much I can't wait to take pain pills again instead of having a new baby to love. I want this baby very much or I wouldn't have done this but it's so hard to go without drugs. I've done it every last minute of this baby's life so far though.
I had the really bad burning and needles jabbing in my feet and hands. Muscle spasms and cramps. Very hard to take with no meds.
I am always tired for serveral days after a real bad flare. And I am always bummed out but I find that has a lot to do with having to rest by force. It's just another choice being taken away. My mind wants to be doing things but my body can't and it sucks.
It's also harder I find when in extreme pain to deal with life. Lately my husband and I can't catch a break. I found out in the last few days that he might lose his job and insurance before the baby comes, my two door car which won't hold two kids and we need to sell needs a $1200 repair and I'm dealing with all the paperwork for my SSD hearing on 8/4. I just want to sit and cry.
Has anyone ever noticed that you feel a little better after a good cry when you're in bad shape. I think the release relaxes my body a little.
Maybe a bad fibro flare is like a long controlled seizure and afterwards you're body is spent. I don't know. I wish I'd been to medical school.
Hang in there gang. I know I am so lucky to have a family because there are some of us who are totally alone. But with all the bombs that keep dropping in our life we're struggling just like everybody else. And I feel like it's my fault because I can't work.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day. I do get to take the occasional sleeping pill with the baby so tonight is the night. I need some sleep to function.
Thanks for listening as always.