I think the weight gain really adds to my depression too. It causes such inactivity, which causes more weight gain....like a rollercoaster I go. I had the surgery for GERD 2 years ago and lost 40 pounds. I have since gained almost every pound back and I hardly eat anything. My stomach is much smaller now. The GERD surgery was not to lose weight, but to stop stomach acid from burning my lungs any longer. And that worked. One of the side affects was weight loss due to not being able to swallow anything but fluids for 3-4 months, so I lived on Apple cider. But I went down to 127 pounds and threw all my BIG clothes away. Got all new "Little" ones that I can't even think of wearing anymore. I am 152 pounds now. It sucks. I have no clothes that fit except a few dresses I found in the back of the closet that I bought 3 years ago. They are Maternity because that was all i could wear due to the bloating. Now thats back too and I feel like S***! To bad I am always so constipated from IBS and that makes me bloat too, along with water retention, and hypothyroidism. God What a mess we are LOL! If it weren't so bad I would laugh harder but it hurts to laugh
I am on MS Contin 60 mgs every 6 hrs around the clock with MSIR for breakthrough. It makes it so I cannot sleep. I have been on it for 2 days now and cannot sleep it makes me so hyper? Go Figure...I am on a dose that would flatten a 200 pound 6 foot man and I can't sleep from it. Sheesh. I went from Fentanyl, which was such a problem that I was in constant withdrawl from it UGH
to the MS Contin. Hopefully as my body adjusts I will be able to sleep. It has helped the pain level go down to 3 WOWOWOW! I don't think I was ever at 3 in my life!!!!
But I am so darn tired and yet my eyes go wide open if I try to sleep...OH...and the hallucinations are a real pisser! I get them at night as I try to sleep. I have Cat Angels come visit me and they purr me into a twilight like sleep...LOL!
I have 9(Real) Cats but I can't have them in my room because if I let one in I have to let them all in and then no room on bed for me LOL! So I am visited by Cat Angels!!! Boy do they seem real though. Last night one named JP came and purred right by my ear and I had my arm in the air resting on his back as I petted him. For over an hour...what a picture that must have been LOLOL! hey, it has been years since I could even hold my arm in the air and here I do it for an hour on a Cat Angel!!!!OHMAN!
Well...Keep on Keeping on and "Above All Do No Harm!"
Love and Light to all...Kovena