wishn

Thank you both. That was very special to me. Never thought the day would come that I would "advertise my birthday" silly, I realize. Just have been feeling so bad that I needed a pick me up and I appreciate your thoughts. It did just that. I did have lunch with my son and daughter and made a huge mistake. I was feeling down because I am feeling so bad from lack of sleep and so much to do around the house and no one to help. My22 year old spoke up and said, at some point I need to get you a gift. I said no problem, why do you come over and help me paint instead. She said I don't do paint, too much work. Oh well. My son did give me some nice gifts and usually is my rock when I'm feeling down. I have been trying to tackle a ceramic floor for my kitchen and it's taking so long. I got so frustrated last night and didn't sleep at all, so today was double fold bad. My son spoke up and said you should have just got a professional to do it in the first place. I am a single mom and always been use to taking on everything myself, and just can't get to the point that it isn't that easy anymore. I know my kids have their lives but little disappointed knowing how much I was down, they might have looked at me and said, "what can we do to help?" Even if just to paint a room or help a little. I know they love me, but when it comes to helping work wise,,,,they just don't do it. A friend had offered to come and help get the painting done and her son offered to do the floor. He said I will be happy to do the floor and you pay for the materials. I thought I would also throw in extra for his time. He never showed up and never said I can't. She, my friend offered three weekends to come over and help me get my home in order and said this will make you feel better. I have always been there for everyone, and just feeling hurt that I never even got a call to say nevermind, I changed my mind. My son said mom you are getting to upset and have to realize people are busy now days and don't get upset because they can't do it. Am I being unreasonable? I was so excited when she volunteered and have been so let down since. I didn't ask her , she volunteered and had my hopes so built up that I thought I would finally be able to get my house in some kind of order again. Thanks for listening and please be honest with me. I shouldn't feel this way, right?

thanks for always being there.... Just feeling really sad today. Guess it's something about turning 48 and not being in the kind of health that I would wish for. Instead of birthday party, I have thrown myself a pity-party. silly me