Bad Night, Bad Month, Bad and Sad - Fibromyalgia Message Board

oholland · 08-22-2004, 04:07 AM

Well it's nearly 5a.m. and I haven't slept yet. I forgot to take my trazadome and now it's too late. Not that it helps a whole lot anyway but once I get to sleep I don't wake up within the hour and can get four to six hours sleep most nights. I just plain hurt all over. I did get one of the memory foam toppers for my mattress and at least lying down isn't as bad as before. I'm just so sad knowing that if I could take advil I would stop huring but then I would start bleeding and it would be a short lived cure. Tylonal and Vicoden are just barely keeping me going and sometimes they don't even do that. Iknow stress is a lot of it. My dad died three months ago and then my mom was diagnosed with cancer and right after her surgery my aunt died from lung cancer. I was diagnosed with Fibro during the time between my father's funeral and my mother's diagnois. And I haven't been able to work in the last 11 months and filed for disablility and was of course turned down. They said there was no reason why I couldn't drive from government office to government office and demonstrate software. Hah! I can't even remember how to read a map most days much less remember how the software works! And the way my body feels after driving for several hours to get to a new county office!!!! I can't even walk without a cane now, I can imagine getting up the courthouse steps.

I'm just really down right now. I go back to the doctors in another week and my Rheumy always makes me feel like an idiot, which I do tend to be when the fog is worse and my GP doesn't really understand what fibro is and doesn't want to address it (I'm hoping he read up on it since my last visit and we can communicate better). Well, I've gripped enough. Sorry.

Olivia

Marimac · 08-22-2004, 05:51 AM

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Originally Posted by oholland

Well it's nearly 5a.m. and I haven't slept yet. I forgot to take my trazadome and now it's too late. Not that it helps a whole lot anyway but once I get to sleep I don't wake up within the hour and can get four to six hours sleep most nights. I just plain hurt all over. I did get one of the memory foam toppers for my mattress and at least lying down isn't as bad as before. I'm just so sad knowing that if I could take advil I would stop huring but then I would start bleeding and it would be a short lived cure. Tylonal and Vicoden are just barely keeping me going and sometimes they don't even do that. Iknow stress is a lot of it. My dad died three months ago and then my mom was diagnosed with cancer and right after her surgery my aunt died from lung cancer. I was diagnosed with Fibro during the time between my father's funeral and my mother's diagnois. And I haven't been able to work in the last 11 months and filed for disablility and was of course turned down. They said there was no reason why I couldn't drive from government office to government office and demonstrate software. Hah! I can't even remember how to read a map most days much less remember how the software works! And the way my body feels after driving for several hours to get to a new county office!!!! I can't even walk without a cane now, I can imagine getting up the courthouse steps.

I'm just really down right now. I go back to the doctors in another week and my Rheumy always makes me feel like an idiot, which I do tend to be when the fog is worse and my GP doesn't really understand what fibro is and doesn't want to address it (I'm hoping he read up on it since my last visit and we can communicate better). Well, I've gripped enough. Sorry.

Olivia

Have you tried hypnotism to help to relieve the pain. A lot of times, hypnotism can unlock the muscle fibers and relax them so they heal. It would allow your vicodin to be decreased so that it would work when nothing else does. Just a suggestion.

Icefire · 08-22-2004, 08:52 AM

Hi,

I feel for you, I had one of those nights the other night. I couldn't sleep and I was so anxious. I think it's at those times that we have to try anything that will work. Hope you feel better soon.

Chris