Jenetti

totally understand what youre talking about hon. i cant even go shopping at the mall anymore because i end up "paying for it" for the next few days . PAIN GALORE! i used to be extremely active, walked 3 miles a day, or biked anywhere from 8 - 10 miles a day. I used to go to church 3 times a week, worked a full 40 hour a week job at an elementary school office, held bunco parties, and went to them as well, used to go on vacations, i held 3 different jobs at church (volunteer), used to teach bible school to the younger ones, then later to the teenagers, was an elder and treasurer of our church. i used to love going shopping, i also held a ladies party once a month where i did all the cooking, and we'd play pictionary till midnight. Loved going to antique furniture auctions, even had my own antique shop for two years. Was a soccer/baseball/football mom who was involved in it totally. I was a wonderful , happy all around mother, wife, sister, friend.
That was before the fibro and my autoimmune disease got worse. Didnt mean i didnt have pain when i was doing all that in my previous style of life, just meant that the fibro progressed to full blown and beyond.

Now, all that has changed. If i go shopping one day, it means 2 - 3 days of complete miserable pain. We dont even go to movies anymore, or parties and no longer am i involved in church, cant even go to services tho i do the next best thing and watch services on tv. Everything , my way of life ended when the fibro progressed. I dont even make up my bed anymore, my husband cooks and keeps the house clean and then goes to work full time , takes me to my doctors appts, etc. If i try to help and clean house, i end up paying for it later. sometimes i dont care because i hate feeling useless, so i muster all the strenght i have and clean or do laundry or cook, even tho i know i'll pay for it later. Its been this way for years now. I long for the days of when i was a very active person.