Just have to talk. It's about 4:30 AM here in the Boston area. I woke up at about 3:30 AM with really severe pain. I'm scared. I often wake up with muscle spasms and pain. Since all this crap started, I have lost a ton of weight and the muscle pain, or whatever it is, gets so bad because I no longer have any fat as a buffer. I'm average height at 5'9" and my weight right now is hovering between 108-111 pounds. When this started I weighed about 135-140 pounds. I really am so underweight right now.
Males have body image issues too. I looked at myself when I was younger and I see this guy that had shoulders, and a chest, and good color. I looked at a photo from about three months ago and I look like a ghost. So damn skinny, pale and lifeless.
I'm divorced now so I'm living alone, and on nights like this I really feel so all alone when fighting pain like this. God, as if the days are not long enough! I need to be up all night too!
God, the pain is just not going away. Sometimes when it gets this bad I go the the ER, I never go in, I just sit in the parking lot and ride it out.
I need to go now as I need to go throw up. Sorry for being graphic, but pain can do that to me at times.
I would talk to your doctor and maybe he/she can prescribe you something to give you more help. Also try taking hot baths before bed. That might help relax you too.
I wake up with pain on and off in the middle of the night. 2 nights ago was a tough one for me. Actualy yesturday I was driving and had to pull over because I was getting such muscle twitching/spasums in my leegs I had to massage them. You can actualy see the muscles twitching ...I hate it.
I hope you feel better.....
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Gosh Jimm, I'm so sorry to hear that your pain is that bad. My pain is bad too, and I can totally relate to being up at o'dark thirty in the morning. It's an awful situation, and I do understand. I too have weight issures. I'm underweight also, but not nearly as bad. I'm 5'2" and weigh in at 105 fully dressed. I understand also that sometimes the pain can make you throw up, but on the same coin, I can see that there is a serious problem if it's making you do that often. I highly reccomend going in to the doctor and getting some medication for your symptoms. I don't know much about homeopathy, but I've heard good things about it, and I would also reccomend trying that. The point of all of my rambling is that you have a problem and your body is telling you that. It's really important that you go see some sort of physician asap, and get on the road to "recovery". You can have a full life, and you can be healthy. While it might not be what most people consider to be "normal" but it's better than the position you are in right now. I wish all the best for you, keep your chin up.
always know we are here for you. tho you cannot see us we are all around you.
i have no words to ease your pain. only compassion and understanding.
the body is what the body is. life and time alter the way it looks. no illness can alter the person you are within.
when i look in the mirror i see a woman who has lived life and still is. sure the package doesn't look hot anymore. i no longer care. i know life is about who i am not what i look like. this from a woman once very svelt and sultry. at some point life showed me it is what i am inside that decides my beauty, not what is outside. it is the same for all beings, gender aside.
i have trouble keeping weight on also. considering the alternatives, i accept mine with gratitude. giggle, like i have a choice? maybe that's what makes it so easy. knowing.
peace,
bluelakelady
Hi Jimm..I'm sorry that you've found yourself here but know that you will get a ton of great advice.
First you need to go to a Rhumotologist(sp) and be tested for Fibro (tender spots)...also get checked for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Arthritis...Blood work for arthritis will come back negative..it normally does 98% of the time but get checked anyway.
Make sure you're tested for Hypothyroidism and Lupus. Talk to your Doctor if your body 'jerks and spasms' out of the blue.
Does your stomach kill you? Do you have to go to the bathroom and/or have you had 'accidents?" ..THEN talk to your Doctor about Irritable Bowle Syndrome..
With Fibro there are so many different things that hit the body that a person doesn't know if they're coming or going..so many different illness'wrapped up in one painful body...don't forget..depression, anxiety, stress, insomnia like to come along for the ride also if you're depressive prone.
Please drag yourself to your Doctor and get help...There are a lot of meds out there...some people can take them then theres people like me who are very very sensitive to meds so it's hit and miss with me.
Lycera seems to work for a lot of people PLUS the good side for you is that Lycera is known for putting weight on.
Good Luck Sweety and please come to us anytime.
OH, are you working? if not, have you applied for Social Security Disability? Please don't wait to apply if you're not working...
Does your family/friends help?
Remember again..We're here should you want to vent or complain..the people here have listened to me for a while and they've been so kind...you're amongst friends here.
Take Care.
Belle~
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