neveragain444

hey everyone.. how are you all doing?

i smoked cigarettes for 22 years ending at 3 packs a day and quit on new years. it was one of the worst experiences that I had to go through with anxiety and depression (i went to having suicidal thoughts after I quit). but my doctor put me on Lexapro so I was able to continue not smoking. the stuff was great. i have really had to avoid being around anyone who smokes. but this past weekend when we went to visit my brother and my son came in to visit from the army, it all went poohooee where they smoke. i was hyperventilating and my body was achy all over and especially my chest, the anxiety attacks were so bad, i cried.

I started smoking 1 or 2 on Friday, and now I am smoking a pack & half a day. Started taking Chantix 4 days ago hoping to quit again. I don't really want to quit but the problem is the Mobic my doctor put me on for my Fibro "arthritic" pain does not work when I smoke. Mobic gives me enough energy to stay out of bed, move around, get my housework done, get out of the house occassionally, it really works. I was diagnosed with Fibro about 10 years ago and I have had CFS for 13 years and I haven't been responsive to any medication but this one. It however does no good whatsover as long as I am puffing on a cigarette because that makes me so tired, I don't want to move. Maybe that is why medications didn't work before, because I was smoking so much?? Who knows.

I do plan on following the Chantix directions and quit within a week, maybe sooner if I can handle it. I can't hardly go it without smoking, I have smoked for so long. But I have to quit again, I cannot live with the way it makes me feel.