Ok so I got my diagnosis. It is indeed Fibro. Am also getting tested for the Anklosing Spondalitis and waiting to hear back about that.
Unfortunately I've been really struggling lately. My parents are supporting me financially at the moment while I figure out my finances, but they wont pay for my therapy anymore. I have borderline personality disorder and without therapy I am in REALLY bad shape. The rheumatologist told me I have a bit of a special case because my mental illness is preventing the medications from working and until I tackle those issues I wont be able to reduce the pain and suffering. The only thing that remotely helps is cannabis which I can no longer afford ($). I've been doing mindful meditation which helps too, but not enough.
I have been having insomnia, and chronic yeast infections (yet another thing making sure I stay alone forever *le sigh*). I have tried to cure them but they keep coming back I think I need to go off of my birth control pill. I'm hoping that will help.
I'm so depressed. I can barely take care of myself. I can either cook (sorta) or clean (sorta) but I can never manage to do both. I live alone and I have very little support. Even on my low pain days I have a hard time managing daily tasks because my memory has become severely effected.
I don't know what to do about any of this..I just want to give up