Welcome !!! You sound so much like me....living in the same area, similar age, kids the same age, and someone important in your life that has a serious illness. For me it is my sister. She had an AVM burst in her brain and thank God she is alive because most people who have a brain AVM burst die...but she was left with stroke like symptoms on the left side...like facial paralysis, an eye that is blind, has to walk with a cane. She is disabled, can't drive, has no depth perception.
When I started having symptoms, which started out as horrible migraine headaches and upper body pain and fatigue and then later the moved throughout my body, I felt like I had no right to complain because of what my sister was going through. I have felt so alone and my poor husband has had to hear it all. The guilt I feel is worse than the pain. The guilt of not being able to take care of everything and everybody like I used to do. When my husband comes home from work and the house is not clean, I feel like slinking away with my tail between my legs. When the kids want to go out and play in the pool and I can't take them, I feel like a horrible mother.
I totally understand where you are coming from. I am so glad that your husband is Cancer free now. Now you can concentrate on taking care of yourself and I really hope you find something that gives you relief.
I just started on Neurontin, Naprosyn and Flexeril...I guess it will take a little time to see if it works. I ordered a Tai Chi video because my doctor said that the slow fluid movements are perfect exercise for a fibro sufferer. I also bought a Qi Gong video cause it is similar. They are described as "meditation in motion" which appeals to me. Exercise and stress relief all in one...can't beat that.
I'm glad you joined the group. I hope you can find support and lots of info that will help you. I just joined today and I am so glad I did. No more 2am ******** posts that I have to delete the next morning for fear of someone seeing them...LOL. Suffering in silence is hard...and now I don't have to.