hurts, congratulations on making it to the next phase. You aren't a wimp. A lot of people get queasy looking at their incisions. In fact you are probably more the norm...I think I'm the weird one because I like seeing stuff like that.
You are at the point in your recovery where you just get sick of it, the whole helpless thing. You are stuck in between the intense recovery phase where you can't do anything and the phase where you can actually be mobile again. I HATED that in-between stage. Where you really didn't feel like doing anything at first, now you feel like it but can't. It's frustrating.
I was a weenie and took pain meds all through PT, so compared to me you are doing great. I say thank God for the miracles of modern medication and take whatever you need to feel better. I think you heal better when you aren't in pain anyway.