[QUOTE=tamass;4160686]I know the loss of control and needed help to do even the smallest things plays a part in it but I also feel there is more to it. I can't seem to explain it but there jus feels like there is more than my loss of control. Heck my hubby keeps joking that I have more control now than ever and the perfect position on the couch to supervise and make sure all things are done my way. I have just semed to have lost that joking fun loving part of me the part that my boys and husband loved. I don't laugh at movies, jokes, or anthing anymore...it is just not me.
Thanks for the reply
I really do understand! I have been through 10 foot surgeries, some more complicated than others, and dealt with chronic foot/ankle pain since a work injury 9 years ago.
I too stopped laughing and joking around which was really strange because I am usually a silly and happy person. I blame some of it on the pain medication I was on. Are you taking anything?
Also, I ended up reaching out for help and found a wonderful pain psychologist. She helped me see that what I had been through was traumatic and I had to accept and process it. The fact that I was injured had a lot to do with my psychological state as my life changed in the blink of an eye and subsequently I had some issues to work through - anger, depression, etc.... You may want to look into it.
The good thing is you are noticing the state of mind you are in and reaching out to those of us who have been through it. Good for you!
You may try getting some fresh air and going for a ride (although not in your hubby's truck
. There is a lot to be said for getting out - even when you really don't feel like it.