hi

I'm SO glad I ran across this board! I have felt in the dark for months now and would appreciate any help/advice/answers I can get.
I'll try to keep it as short as possible...promise
I've had bunions that started getting bad probably 5 yrs ago and around 3 yrs ago really started progressing. I put off the original surgery 2 yrs ago and finally realized I couldn't put it off any longer this fall. I'm an avid tennis player and the only tennis shoes I could fit into were these men's Wilson (extra wide) ones that after about a week I would always bust through the side of the right one and about half the time the left one as well.
I had the right foot surgery done on Oct. 18th. It went well and in about 5 days I was hobbling around and overdid myself a couple times but all in all it seemed fine. The doc originally wanted to do them 1 week apart but that just seemed a bit much to me with the severity of them both. I mean I honestly have NO idea how I played tennis with the pain and all. It was really probably just stupid of me but I enjoy it so much that I would carry my tennis shoes onto the court, play, then rip them off and put my sandals back on as soon as I finished. Anyway....I talked him into waiting 3 weeks in between. After the second surgery....you know the saying "you don't have a leg to stand on"? That was me. It was a nightmare. The doc had me in bed 24/7 for a couple weeks and I was having to get nerve blocks to stop the pain. I was evidently right that it threw me into overload because with the first surgery I only took one pain tab and that was only because the nurse in recovery had told me to not let the pain get out of control and when I felt my foot waking up to take something. After having them both done I couldn't sleep, eat ....the pain was horrendous on both feet.
oh...as far as what was done to both feet. I honestly don't know the exact term for the surgery but maybe this will help. I'm going to ask at my next appt (this week) but here's what I know now. They cut off the bone that was protruding then broke and realigned the bone and put in screws to hold it. Like I said, the right foot was much worse than the left but he said after each surgery that alot had to be done on each.
At this point yes, I'm doing better of course than I was but I'm not sure it could've been much worse. I've had 8 major surgeries in my life and recovered quickly and easily from them but this was a doozy....and still is!
I'm so frustrated I don't know what to do with myself. Yes, I'm an impatient person but the doc had told me prior to the surgery that 2 months after having it done I would be back up and on the tennis court. Not quite.
It's been over 13 weeks on the right foot and over 8 on the left one. I was finally told about 3 weeks ago that I could "try" to walk around the block but to avoid hills and stay very close to home. I was allowed to start doing stuff in the pool as of last week along with upper body weights but nothing lowerbody. I called this week and asked if I could start on a stationary bike. NO. Why am I still not allowed to at least try these things?? I'm used to being in very good shape and this is just killing me! I was told at my last appt (about 3 weeks ago) that it would be a minimum of 12 weeks before I could even attempt getting on a tennis court or any type of vigorous activities. Why was I told differently at first? I don't want to mess anything up and go through it again so am complying but am about to pull my hair out. It's not as if I could play tennis if I wanted to anyway. I'm still not able to walk normally even. I've been more than religious with all the exercises and am able to move my big toes now(the morning of course is stiffer but only on the right one) and strangely my left big toe will never touch the ground?? I don't have weakness in my ankles and for the most part the nerve pain is gone. My BIG problem though is swelling. I can't seem to do ANYTHING w/o them just blowing up on me. I normally wear a womens size 10 shoe and am still in a mens size 12 extra wide tennis shoe all the time. And according to if I've done anything or not I'm having to loosen the laces because even they become too tight.
I would GREATLY appreciate any help I can get!! Is there somethiing I'm doing/not doing wrong?? Is what I'm going through normal?? When are most people back in their regular shoes? When will I be able to play tennis again??? When should the swelling at least be to a point where they don't blow up all the time? Is there anything I can do to speed up the healing process that I'm not doing? (I didn't include everything but I've been religious about everything...eating more protein, doing the exercises, you name it!)...I realize now I was given VERY unrealistic expectations and I do feel once this is all over I'll be thankful I had it done as the pain was just ridiculous and preventing me from living life as I wanted and doing the things I enjoy to the fullest but I would just like to know what I should really expect. Is this all ever going to end? For those who've had it done before, how long did it take you to get back in the shape you were in before? Right now I can't for my life imagine being able to play a tennis match. Not just for the fun but that is an important part of my life. I was very sick for a number of years and once I finally got better I immediately got back into tennis which I'd done my whole life and being physically fit and in shape has been my saving grace. Otherwise I have such joint and muscle pain it's unbearable and it's getting back to that point. It takes me until around noon each day for the pain in my body to get to a point that I can get out of bed and start my day. It's just ridiculous but more than anything scary to me. I worked so hard to get to where I was and be able to function and now feel like it's all being ripped away because I had this done.
Sorry again for the length of this post but I really would appreciate all the help/advice I can get!
Thank you!!!!
I just reread my post and do want to add that YES, it could most definitely be worse than what it is so I don't want anyone to think I don't realize that. I've read some other posts that are absolutely horrible and I can't even imagine!! I think because I was given false expectations I'm now disappointed. I would much rather a doctor tell me the very WORST scenario as tell me it's going to be a piece of cake knowing that's not the case. I really don't want to sound like a pity case. I have really even beaten myself up for not being where I thought I was supposed to be healing wise according to what I was originally told. I can't say that I would recommend this particular doc to anyone because of this too. It's just not right to tell someone things will be one way and set them up for such disappointment....in themselves, in what they thought they would be doing....many things.....I really don't agree with that line of thinking and so far have always been set up with an appointment with one of the other doctors at the clinic but have made sure my appointment this week is with HIM and I have a few words to tell him too. This will be the very first time I've even seen him since having either of the surgeries mind you. Something seems a bit wrong with that as well. I did speak with him on the phone once when I called in terrible pain after the second surgery and he reprimanded me like a child telling me that I should be up and "running around the mall" at this point....(4 days post-op second surgery.) This of course made me wonder just what was wrong with me??? I've never been a baby before but he made me feel like one then! ...anyway, I just didn't want to come across as "my case is the WORST" as I know others are having a much tougher time but I would like to know if I'm on course and what to expect along with my other questions. thanks again.....cindy