Sophie,
I'm sorry you have to go thru this again. You know we will all be here for you. You have a lot of people in your corner. You will be in our prayers. There are only a few of us oldtimers left. Just know that anytime you want to panic, vent, cry, or just have a pity party, we are here for you. I hope that you can still have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Mary