IttyBittyWonder

I get AWFUL anxiety/panic attack in church. I sing in the church choir and the choir is all the way in the front. I feel like I will stop breathing,go crazy or die. I feel like running away everytime. The funny thing is that I start to calm down when church is almost over. I can't sit still in church when others are so calm and listening I get racy thoughts like I will lose control and my breathing starts going funny which makes me think something is wrong with me. I look at the clock everytime and if its like 5-10 minutes before ending I feel better. Even if I sit in church I feel like this until its time for church to end. I try to distract myself from the awful thoughts by either coughing or playing a game on my cell. It helps sometimes but not alot Im not on medication. I'm only 21 and a sophmore in college and I think if I start pills now they will have bad side effects. Also I have another problem....I keep checking my heart beat all the time. if even the TINIEST defect I sense I start to panic and think something is wrong with it. My mom says I'm fine so did a doctor I saw 1 year ago. My blood pressure recently was 130/60 and my mom said that if something was wrong with me the blood pressure would show it. Please reply encouraging replies so i know I'm not going crazy...