I did get checked for UTI three weeks ago and I did have one. ow it's away, enuresis isn't. It sticks to me like glue. WTH.
I've had tests about the enuresis all my life and they cannot find a physical reason. In the past few months I had two UTI, one I had to stay two weeks in hospital. So... I am clutching on straws, trying to find physical rather than emotional reasons. I hate it. It adds to the feeling of unworthiness.
I hate it so bad, waking up cold and soaking wet. My mum used to hit me with wet sheets and humiliate me, tell me I'm a pig and should live in a zoo and it's all deliberate, never was, still isn't.
I will go and see the doc on Monday. Get a referral to therapy and another one for happy pills. I hit rock bottom, can't concentrate for the life of me. Need to write a 120 page homework about analysis of social structure in 19th and 20th century and just can't get a thought together.