Hello, this is my first post and I think I could do with some advice.
I know that there is SOMETHING wrong, but I just don't know what it is...
Been under a lot of stress recently, we have a toddler and we are in the middle of adopting my brother- and sister in law. My husbands smaller siblings who are in their teens, couldn't stay with their mother. I also have to finish my degree. I am majorly struggling to concentrate.
Here the symptoms, if that helps at all...
- concentration problems
- severe mood swings, feeling of depression and worthlessness
- panic attacks EVERY night, also due to childhood abuse
- nocturnal enuresis
- recurring UTI
- back pain
First, you need a complete physical. If all is taken care of at that end you need to seek mental health help....if nothing else get on an antidepressant. If you continue to keep your plate so full of issues without resolving your own then you are in for more medical/mental health issues.
I did get checked for UTI three weeks ago and I did have one. ow it's away, enuresis isn't. It sticks to me like glue. WTH.
I've had tests about the enuresis all my life and they cannot find a physical reason. In the past few months I had two UTI, one I had to stay two weeks in hospital. So... I am clutching on straws, trying to find physical rather than emotional reasons. I hate it. It adds to the feeling of unworthiness.
I hate it so bad, waking up cold and soaking wet. My mum used to hit me with wet sheets and humiliate me, tell me I'm a pig and should live in a zoo and it's all deliberate, never was, still isn't.
I will go and see the doc on Monday. Get a referral to therapy and another one for happy pills. I hit rock bottom, can't concentrate for the life of me. Need to write a 120 page homework about analysis of social structure in 19th and 20th century and just can't get a thought together.
I am. But still alone in a way. Cause we are in Germany, he is Scottish and doesn't speak the language, neither do his siblings. So I'm left with the enormous amount of bureaucracy. ....sigh.... wish it was Monday.
You come here and vent, shout cry or sceam any time .. You'll always have someone here to chat too.
You not alone on this cyber board.
I feel your sadness. I love your name... of course thats my daughters name too.