Originally Posted by daisyduck08
someone can tell me to do something two minutes ago &; i sometimes will forget.
i feel so empty inside - like i feel like i have a fear that even if one of my own family member's died - i wouldn't feel any pain. that scares me.
It sounds like Major Depression to me. I have bipolar disorder. Major Depression, which is also called Unipolar Depression, runs in my family so I can relate to the seriousness of your symptoms.
Memory difficulties, extreme difficulty concentrating and especially "feeling empty inside" or emotionless (the medical term for it is anhedonia
) are all signs of Major Depression, a very serious, very physical disease of brain chemistry.
Anxiety, jitteriness, low self esteem, feelings of dread, guilt, mood swings, fatigue or agitation, sleeping too much or not enough, waking up in the early morning (like 4am) and not being able to get back to sleep (called Early Morning Wakefulness), dissociative states (feelings of unreality, feeling like a "ghost" or familiar personal items suddenly seem "wrong" or alien), talking to yourself, yelling at yourself, yelling at everybody else or not talking at all, awful terrible intrusive thoughts, and sometimes feeling nothing (anhedonia) like the brain just gives up and you go blank, like a zombie.
I'm glad to hear you're going to a Pdoc (shrink). You don't have endure this, mood disorders can be treated just like any other illness.
If you'd like to do some research this MedlinePlus page is a start: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/depression.html