Hello Vanessa, I lost my father at the same age, & my parents were so young when they started our faimly, that my mother was widowed, & her children fatherless & age 35, 17 & 15 (me), I turned 15 the week the before he passed away. Oh yes, there is so much that I do not recall, & this was over 23 years ago. But I also recall being your age, & being fuzzy on details as well. I think its a self protective thing. someplace within our minds, he still is alive & there. Is there any major changes going on in your world right now?, (new school, job, boyfriend?) Oh & to Ruth, "The dancing on his feet", is also one of my best memories, along with, My parents made a reservation at a fancy place & dressed me up in a floor lenth gown, & my father took me on my "first date "(I was 9), they wanted me to have the little girl memory, & I can still recall how the other patrons remarked on the bond that was apparent. Since then, my Mother remarried, my step father bacame my Dad, (I already had a father, but he gained just as much respect & love), a brother & a sister. So my little faimly grew more than I ever thought it could. Sad to say, since 1996, I have lost in order, my sister to cancer, (mother of 2), Son who was 6 1/2, long story but had manymany medical troubles staring with his heart, someday I will go into detail on this board, Then my "Dad" to cancer,(Mother widowed again at an early age, but they did have almost 20 years together), then my brother to ALS, (father of 3, the youngest was only 2), & now its the 3 of us again, but my brother is waiting for a liver transplant as we speak. I am disabled with rare tumors, depression the whole kit. My Mother is healthy but refuses to go to a Dr. But life does go on. I have been in your shoes, you reached out here, & thats a good thing, just talking, & relating does help, keep me posted my peace & love is sent in your direction, Kirsten
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