Re: I lost my dad Aug. 30th
I was with both my parents when they died and I'm in the same boat. That's ALL I see when I think of them. The whole ordeal haunts me. My Dad died Aug '04 and my Mom died Nov '05. Just passed the 1 year anniversary of my Mom and I'm pretty much a mess. I knew after being with my Dad how bad that messed me up and I wasn't sure I could do it for my Mom, especially so soon. I did though...had to. I've felt so bad because with my Dad, I went to pieces...crying so hard as he was passing. It seemed like it took so long but in comparison to my Mom it was fast. I've been so afraid that I made it harder for him to go since they say that they can still hear you and I was crying. I didn't want to do that to my Mom and so didn't fall apart until after she died. I now worry that maybe she thought I didn't care as much. Geez, can always find something to feel guilty for...Anyway, just wanted you to know you're not alone.