My heart goes out to you. I know how you feel. I lost my dad on November 29, 1991, and I lost my mom February 18,2006. When I lost my dad 15 years ago it felt like my world just ended, but I had my mom and we got through it together. When I watched my mom take her last breath, I wanted to go with her. She was not only my mom but my very best friend. And it is so hard to go on . I , like you dont know how I made it through Thanksgiving .My mom loved cooking and Thanksgiving was always a very special holiday for us.My mom had tried last year to teach me to bake a buttermilk pie and I tried but it just didnt turn out right, so she and I together baked another one and it was perfect.
This year my daughter and I baked a buttermilk pie and when we pulled that pie out of the oven, I cried , because right in the middle of the pie was a perfect shaped golden brown heart. And I know the only explanation for that heart was that mom put it there.