hello i don't know if this is the right category or if i should even be saying this but i really need to vent some of this out and i guess this is the best place i can think of. anyways long story short, i'm 19 and i lost my mama to a NSCLC with a brain tumor after all the many, many lies i lost her on the 1st of September. and i miss her more than ever esp at this time of the year.
i guess what i;m trying to ask is that did/is anyone
(insert extremely angry words in here) - 'peed' off with their any of their family memebrs?
when my mama passed away. my family they started to boss me around. 2 of them even swore at me. and all of them tells me constanly how i should feel. like if i told them i feel mad then they either say 'you can't feel that way' or they start to swear saying thiings that doesn't even relate one of them said quote: 'its not about you its about mom and dad' end quote. another one of them, just 2 weeks ago started to swear at me.. and i'm her neice! and this wasn't swear and stop this was: 'come out of your room and face me you chicken****, i will slap you. you think i;m scared of you..'
i'm just, i'm so mad. i can't tell anyone, i can't talk to anyone because this is my family. all of them are like this. and i don't know what to do. what can i do? no one listens because i'm only a kid. or i'm not mature yet. i'm sick and tired of this.
they do not know what its feels like. they don't know what i feel like! i miss my mom! and all they are doing is making me feel more... ******.
i remember when my ma passed away and its tradition that we keep this shrine of her for 7 weeks. and one of my uncle - the one that i quoted above, he bought one of his.. 'flings'... to MY home! and it wasn't even a month my mom passed!! then he goes and tell me whats right and whats wrong!
!!! for me to even think about it. yet i do anywyas. because everyone i live with everyone one that surrounds me DO NOT understand!
i don't know what to do. its painful and hard enough withou my mom but them doing that is making it more harder.
anyways thanks for listening or reading. not feeling any better but i'm venting in a way.