Hi I am really at a loss to know what to do.
I lost my dad, grandad, nan and auntie all over the last six years. I became very depressed and went onto anti-depressants and had two lots of counselling. However, none of these seemed to work as I could not be emotionally honest during the sessions and would save it all up to afterwards where I would just break down and cry. I felt so guilty for burdening my family and boyfriend now husband.
As the years went by I seemed to get slightly better and started to feel I was over the worse and at least living with the deaths. However, over the last few weeks I have just found myself crying and feeling very low and down for no particular reason. Everything else in my life is good and should be making me happy. I really can't explain why I am feeling like this.
I have been to the doctor and she is under the belief that it could still be linked with the bereavements, some issues that I haven't completely dealt with yet.
I really am at a loss to know where to go, what to do. I just want to move on and enjoy life and really am in despair.