Just need to get this out somewhere
Well, today's April 26th. It didn't hit me until this morning what a day of rememberance it is. I mean, I knew what the date was and knew it was coming, but still.
Today would have been my son's 21st birthday. Alex was a bright, happy, sensitive child who thoroughly enjoyed being different. He was artistic. He was funny. He was always the first to comfort anyone who needed it.
It's been 12 years since the accident that killed both Alex and his sister, Cassie. I would have thought after all this time, I could look on his birthday with a smile and remember only the good. But each and every time the pain returns. I suppose because I didn't look ahead and mark this day with weeks of dread it means I'm getting "better". Still, it's a milestone, and would have been an important one in his life.
Today is also the 1st anniversary of the death of a dear dear friend. Rob was always there for me for comfort, for venting, for just talking trash. I was always greeted with a smile, a hug, and a cup of coffee (or something stronger) when I visited. We didn't get to spend nearly enought time together. I'm glad we got to say "goodbye" and "I love you".
I miss you and think of all 3 of you every day.