Re: Doing this for help...
Know that you are not alone. What you have been through, the numbness and anger you are feeling...I felt those same things. My wife was my everything so I can relate. I also found my wife dead. I got to pick out her coffin, clothes, etc. Please know that others have gone through what you are going through and have done OK. Cling to God and he will help you through.
I will be praying for you