holly45

I lost a good friend almost a year ago, I never felt so much pain in my life. I had lost people I was close to but maybe it was the fact that not only was he my friend he was young (26), it was sudden, and he was one of those few people in the world that just made it a better place. What makes this harder is that he was my husband’s best friend and only close friend. My husband made life plans around him and he did the same for my husband. When all his friends were moving on in there lives this friend stayed. They were very close and he is lost without him. His friends have been little help, the only ones who really could help are too self-absorbed or living in another state. Only one friend has even really been there, but I don’t think she is in a place to be there for him the way he needs. Every time something good happens there is always this hallow feeling, and I can see it in his eyes. He has stopped, he goes through the motions of every day life but I know they mean nothing to him anymore. From the beginning he has tried to remain strong for others, we have tried our best to support his friend’s family and be there for them. He also looked at the photos from the accident and I know they only make it worse. (It had to be done and better him than the father)
I know he would never seek help, and he will not take any meds, I know not to even ask. I just want to be able to help him, because it hurts so much to see him like this, I can’t imagine life without him and to see him like this just kills me. I wish I could just trade places with his friend because I know he would be much better at this than I am.