My Dad died of Colon Cancer two months ago, and I miss him like crazy!!!! My family has had the year from hell. My Dad was diagnosed in Aug of last year up until then he was my Mother's primary care giver, she has MS and we had to put her in a nursing home in Sept! So through his last year his was living by himself
. My dad started to get really bad in Apr of this year my sister and I went for a visit for Easter and Dad wouldn't even get off of the couch he was so tired and he had no appitite. We took him in to the hospital and they said he didn't have long maybe afew weeks, they put him into Pallitive Care from there when a bed became available. They took his IV off there I was very strong through this whole thing but the day that they took out the IV I lost it ( I waited until I go to the parking lot ) I guess it was the beginning of the end, for Dad
little did I know what was in store for Dad. The Dr. would tell us he has 2 weeks he can't live longer than that as each went by the nurses started saying your Dad is off the chart meaning that they beyond what they expected. There are 3 kids in ours family and we took turns spending time with him and the end so he wasn't alone at all. There was one night shift I had it was the last one was still awake for I came in the room to start my shift and he had his eyes shut felt guilty because the afteron before when I left I didn't say I love you and now I might never get the chance to tell him again so I thought I'll say it now even if he can't hear me, I said he opened his eyes, said I Love you too, I love all of you kids, then he put his hand out for to slap (give him 5, he always did that) later that night nurses came to turn him he was very out of it then but he looked me and said Thank you, Thank you those were his last words he went to sleep then and didn't wake up. He amazed his Dr. he was in Pallaitive Care for 32 days!!!
When does this aching go away, I still cry so much