I lost my wonderful Mom suddenly on 7/10/07. She had not been feeling well, but it didn't seem out of the ordinary. I was going to take her to the doctor the next morning, but when I woke up and went downstairs to visit her, she was gone.
I'm 42 years old and have always lived with my Mom. We had a mother/daughter house and she and my Dad lived downstairs (my Dad's still with us). I'm married and have one son, who was very close to her.
I cannot believe she is gone and now live with the guilt that I may have been able to save her had I been there with her. I did offer to sleep downstairs (like I had done before when she wasn't feeling well, but she told me no).
I MISS HER SO MUCH! I have anxiety and the sadness is overwhelming. I don't have any friends who have lost their mothers and it is hard for people to understand. Fortunately, my sister and I are in constant contact and I feel thankful to have her. However, the friends that were around me have disappeared. Practically no one calls to see how I am doing or just to chat.
I went to a bereavement group yesterday, but no one showed up except for the Therapist.
I was hoping to connect with other daughters who have lost their moms in the North Jersey (New Jersey) area.
Thank you for reading this. I am truly sorry for all of your losses.
