You are so new to widowhood. I lost my husband 9 years ago and I can tell you that it does get better with time. It does help to talk about it with others who understand what you are feeling. Everyone grieves in their own way and time. There is no timetable to guide one along, you just try to survive one day at a time.
If there is a local support group, those can be helpful to you to talk among others like you. When I was widowed, I lived in a very rural area and no local support group was available to me, so I joined an online support group and through the years have been blessed with support from others like me. Reach out, there are others willing to help you through this time. You do not have to suffer in silence.
I am sure if you search for widows/widowers you will find a wonderful family of people who are willing to listen and share. I know I felt much better knowing I was not the only one having the thoughts and feelings I was experiencing. I hope you will find a place where you can feel comfortable and make new meaningful friends as I have. Bless you in your journey. Hugs.