Originally Posted by kathryn+2
My mom has been gone 4years now and I still find myself getting angry. I know anger is part of the grief process,so I'm not overly concerned ,but I wonder if anyone else out there is dealing with this? I was recently diagnosed with lupus, and I'm angry that my mom is not around for me. I'm feeling abandoned ,and I'm angry about it. Not only am I angry at the circumstances ,but I'm angry at her for leaving me. I know threre's no timetable for the grief process,so I guess I just need to be patient with myself. But am I the only one feeling like this?
I understand your anger. Yes, Lots of people out there are dealing with this issue because a mum mother can't be compared to any other apart from God's. Sad to hear you have lupus. I will be praying for your healing. Please don't be angry for her not being there when you are sick. God said he would never leave nor forsake us. (sg1022). Ask Jesus to take this burden from you because He said to do just that. to cast our cares upon Him. Do it over and over if nothing seems to happen and you will be surprised what happens.
Everything happens for a reason and before you know it, you will be with your mum on the other side of Eternity. So don't just try to 'be patient with myself' ask God to enable you and His spirit to give you 'supernatural' patience and comfort. These are gifts, its not by our might. don't try so hard.