Re: Anxiety stemming from the unexpected loss of my father...
First, youo have my sympathy in the loss of your Dad. I lost both my Mom and Dad within 5 weeks last fall, so I know how awful it is to loose a parent.
Some days it just hard to get up and get dressed. I fail to see the reason why I need to present myself to the world. I don't know why I need to justify myself, why I act, why I say the things I do, why I am feeling like I do. It's hard to loose a parent and until you have lost someone, people don't understand the grief you are going through.
Your panic attacks are a way of your body suffering for you. You said you don't know how to grieve. This is a way for you to grieve. Everybody finds their own way to express their sorrow. For right now, until you can figure out a better way, your body has decided that panic attacts will work as a way to rlease some of the emotion that you have stored up.
Why don't you go to your counselling office on campus and ask what local groups that they have for support. They should have one for grief counseling, perhaps you can get into that one. It will help you with some of the burden that you are bearing. There shouldn't be any charge, it should be part of your campus fee system.
One last thing.. ****** the seven stages of grief. That might also give you some help. You are in my prayers.....