Re: I thought it was supposed to get easier as time went by
If you want to talk about it--and I know that has helped me since my dad's death in September--you have to search out people who are willing to listen. Sometimes our own family members are wrapped up in their own grief, or friends are so involved with their own busy lives that they say "Oh, how are you?" but then hardly seem to hear the response.
This board is a great place to vent, or you could consider a grief support group, or grief counseling. I attend weekly sessions with a grief counselor, but my mother attends a support group with about 15 recently bereaved members, and after the first session she said, "It was great--everyone there understood me." She said it has really helped her not to feel so alone.