im sorry for the pain you and your family must be feeling. but know that your husband is no longer suffering he is now in peace. It will be difficult but time will only take this away. just live your life day by day and enjoy your life with your children go out on activities with them and just spend as much time with your kids as possible
I am trying very hard, I went to a grief group tonight, and it was good, I am not thinking that I am losing my mind, other people are describing the same kind of crazy emotions. I am back at work, I wake up every day and I feel like a robot, mindless, just going through the motions, but I will keep trying, some days are a drop better than others,
I know Closs what you are talking about. Even straightening up my kitchen which used to take me 10 minutes at the most, now takes me 45 mins. I feel like I am going in slow motion and you described it best, like a robot. Awful feeling inside. I am just wondering when my mental state will come back to normal and when this depression will leave. I never cried so much before in my life.
Thanks for thinking of me Darlene, it makes me feel good that someone cares, and understands what I am feeling,
Today wasen't the best of days, I got a burst of bad energy and went into the storage room and started ripping it apart and throwing everything out, not Johnny's stuff but just stuff that was saved. I went a little crazy but It made me feel good. then my son called and I fell apart, and said things I shouldn't of said, and I upset him, I told him that I wanted to go with Johnny, and that I could if I wanted to, I was sorry after, but I was in a very weird mood, and I hope it passes when i wake up. I don't want to lose it.