Oh dear Izzy, you sure do have alot on your plate.
I am sooo sorry to hear about you dad and grandpa's deaths and now having to take on the emotions of knowing that you will be losing 2 more grandparents.
You must be feeling so numb and overwhelmed and I just wanted to let you know that I am sorry and am here to listen if you need to vent.
I lost my dear brother almost two years ago and was barely even through that when I lost my mom.
I still am having a tough time of it and missing them dearly.
Try your best to take care of yourself in little ways and if need be seek out a grief counselor or bereavement group who understand what you are going through.
I have found in my life, that it is such a comfort to be with others who understand what you are going through.
Nobody understands a loss unless they have lost a loved one like you.
I hope that you are hanging in there and if there is anything I can do to help make it easier, please let me know.
((((HUGS))))) ~ Ivory