I lost my dear brother 2 years ago and miss him so very much. Like you describe, he was more than a brother, he was a good friend who I could talk to about almost anything.
And he was my youngest brother too. Losing him was the hardest thing I ever endured, that is, besides losing my mom 9 months after him.
I just went to visit his grave on Father's Day with my dad since it marked the two year Anniversary since we lost him.
I talk about him as much as possible but find that people feel as if I haven't moved on when I do but it is just my way of keeping his memory alive.
Same with my mom, she was my best friend and I still find myself reaching for the phone to talk to her or my brother.
Feel free to talk or share stories about your brother.....I will be glad to listen and share some of my own.
My brother was a wonderful person and his passion was being a good father. He left behind 6 children and was married 3 times but melded his families...in fact his 2nd wife and widow are best friends and live only blocks from one another. 5 of his 6 kids go to the same school and the 6th is in college.
It was amazing how he melded everyone together by being the best dad he could be.
His final journey taught me alot about life and also about our faith and love for one another......of how no matter what distance or time that may stand between us we can still be near those who we are joined in love and in faith.
Despite his passing, he still shows me that he is near.....our hearts were very open to such things and so I have been blessed to KNOW that he is still very much around me and those he loves.
I find that the memories we shared over our lifetime are enough to keep him alive and which help me through some difficult times when I find myself missing him. Somehow, another wonderful memory will emerge and have me smiling and help get me through a moment when I find myself thinking about him. Same with my mom.
Most importantly, I find that gathering with my family, my brothers kids allows me to feel his physical presence each time I give or receive a hug. As much as I feel I need to be alone during such times it is far better to be amongst those who loved him too in order to get through those tough moments.
I hope some of this helps.....I know that it is of great comfort knowing somebody else is going through something similar and hope that my sharing a little bit about my brother helps you feel comforted too.
((((HUGS))))) ~ Ivory